I sit in my messy room wondering how it got so messy? I just moved in this house 4 weeks ago! I realize that I have A LOT of stuff. Growing up, I didn't really have money so I always had to ask my mom for the things I want (mostly Hello Kitty stationary, or trinkets). So I always felt like my room wasn't cool because I didn't have anything to fill it up with, just posters that I order from the school's book sales lol..or library sales whatever it was they had. I always envied my friend's rooms because it was so well furnished with beautiful everythings all around!
Around high school, I started getting more interested in my mom's business. She had her own beauty salon. I spent most of my h.s. years there in the shop meeting new customers everyday. I think I changed my nail polish every other day back then! I started to earn some money helping my mom with chores, answering the phones, and doing nail art. Guess what I spent all my money on? Every damn thing at the Morning Glory store! haha I have sooo many piggy banks, and I started collecting them. I was able to fill my room up with all the things I wanted (that was affordable at the time). Then...COLLEGE happened and I was a broke ass again, lol. I depended on the book money my mom gave me to survive. I did get a job my last year in college as a research assistant/ TA position. But that wasn't much money hahaha. I also discovered what a credit card was thanks to Minh..who suggested I get one. Basically, that was a terrible idea. Thank the lucky stars that we won so often at the casino that I could pay off my credit card bill. Ask some of my friends..last year I had a big debt. I'm so glad I paid it off...but now I have personal debt, and business debt. But I think in the long haul I'll be able to start making money to pay the debts, and save save save!!!
But now I sit here...with too much stuff. lol I'm a big pack rat, I can't let much go. I always think of the memory tied to the item. I have a very good memory so I always remember when I bought something and the reason why I bought it. My memory has always helped me through school. I didn't have to study as hard when it came to written material, or sitting through lectures. I just need to rehearse it once and I'm set. It helped in band class too lol I played the clarinet and we would have to practice, practice, practice. But now, that memory makes it hard to part with my things! Everything I come across something I like, it comes home with me. I'm a impulsive shopper. I don't think twice =/
I drag it home, forget about it..find it later and think to myself..oh I remember how badly I wanted it. It's just one of those things! You always want what you can't or don't yet have!
Can you picture me in a bead shop? I go crazy, I always buy the whole stock of an item. I can't help it! It's almost an addiction. I've been trying to organize my workspace tonight and just gave up. Worst yet.. I spent $80 at the Japanese $1.50 store buying plastic containers to store my crystals & silver findings...ahhh FML. I called Minh and told him about the damage I did today. I SPENT $80 on PLASTIC lol. He kind of gave me a lecture, which I well needed.
He told me that my mom called it, she told us both that I will realize how hard it is to live on my own. Minh's been gone..and I have to make my own food. lol I was so spoiled at home. My mom would cook twice a day...we'd always have food in the house, fruits, snacks, anything!
Now..it's just so much harder to have a good home cooked meal. I find myself snacking on random food just to not be hungry lol because I'm too scared to go outside the house without Minh. Note, I'm in a new city..I have no family..or really any of my close friends but Minh =/
Well, I lie. My jewelry is my friend. I could sit here 18hrs a day (which I've been doing lately) playing with my crystal beads. There's always something to do at my desk. There are 100 ideas going through my head at once and just not enough hands to bring them to life. I think I would be super depressed if the internet didn't exist. lol
Well..I'll try to make the best of things.
I realized that I dislike the house I'm living in, it's too big. We don't need a big ass house in the hills. It's foggy. It's steep! Driving sucks! I hate backing out of our driveway because it's a hill in itself...My bumper hits the curb, everytime I roll down the hill into the street. =/ Plus, it's a bit expensive to live here..I'm from the Midwest! Everything there is affordable, especially cost of living.
I think I liked living at my parents house...care free! & FREE lol
Overall, I think I'm sad because I miss home, and Minh.
He's the reason I moved here and when he's not here I feel out of place.
Okie..less depressing stuff that nobody cares about.
Time for pictures of my Winkie bear! P.S. Minh doesn't like rodents... lol we got into a fight the day we brought her home >.< Her Cinderella style "running wheel." She two, one her case..omg she runs all night! Then drinks tons of water, and runs again. I need to learn from her, haha
Everyone calls her a mouse, but she's not!
She's just grey & white like one, which I love : )
It's so hard to take her picture b/c she moves so fast!
I'll try to get her face soon, lol
I made a video, but I haven't uploaded it yet.
It's a Winkie workout video.